Why?

Normally the majority of stories start from the beginning. In my case, I’ll try to follow that same path as well. So, why? Why did I decide to take a break from Barcelona? I thought about it many times: before leaving the city, while I was flying and after landing in Australia (Sydney). I was living in what up till today has been the most beautiful and complete city I ever got to live in/visit since I started travelling. Likewise, I met some incredible human beings who I can proudly call friends. My job was not the most exciting one in the world, but the conditions, co-workers and managers were great.

Every weekend I was able to attend to different events, check different restaurants and/or go to different parties. My friendship relationships were growing and growing and I couldn’t feel happier with the life I was living. That being said, every time the clock showed 18:00 and I stood up from my desk to pick up my bag, start walking towards the elevator to get onto the metro and go home, I felt like something was missing. I didn’t feel fulfilled with my job. I didn’t feel like what I was doing was making me happy or helping the world to be a better place.

So, I would say that the turning point which answers the question of “why?” has a lot to do with my job. I’m sure I’m not the first one who felt that before, neither (unfortunately) I’ll be the last one. But, that being said, I’d like to take advantage of this writing to give some thought to, what to me, looks like a never-ending loop. How can it be that, living in a world with such a vast variety of possibilities, people end up doing a job they hate to get money to spend on things that make them forget the job they are doing? It reminds me of a chapter from “Le petit prince”..

I don’t have the answer to that. Maybe our society and Capitalism have a lot to do. Maybe the answer resides in people being too scared to follow their dreams. I’m not sure. Anyway, what I’m sure (kind of) about is that regardless of all the great stuff that I was having in Barcelona, something was telling me that I needed to leave my comfort zone.

I felt like I needed to jump into the unknown, travel, grow, get to know my planet and its inhabitants a little better, find an answer to the crazy-loop question and find a job that made me feel fulfilled at the end of the day. In a nutshell, I felt like I needed to follow my “personal legend” (like Santiago in The Alchemist). Whether I manage to achieve some of the stuff I just mentioned is another story, which, hopefully, I’ll be sharing with you 🙂